Hello again

Hey Skarekrow! It's so good to have you here! I am so sorry to hear about your son's seizure experiences but relieved he has been seizure free for 6 mos and is able to get back to driving and doing his thing. Film school! That's awesome!

So good to hear you are doing well and have found peace-- that you've been able to experience living without depression. <3

I look forward to talking about lucid dreaming and all things bizarre, paranormal and psi here with you! 😃

Heya!
It’s fun to check out the new forum full of OG people 😂
I look forward to chatting about bizarre stuff and paranormal things as well!
Yes, I am very relieved that my son is okay…my mind immediately jumps to all sorts of scenarios having been in the medical fields for so long…not to mention that’s how we discovered my dad’s cancer/brain tumor after he had a seizure, so I was super nervous while he was getting his MRI and whatnot.
The first two were not as intense, and we weren’t even 100% sure they were seizures.
The first one no one was around to witness…the second was a year later and we thought maybe he fainted from not enough sleep and being too busy with his friends to eat.
Sometimes people will have seizure-like movements when they are unconscious.
But this last one was definitely a epileptic seizure…he even felt it coming on (an aura).
He was camping with friends at a cabin and he told his friend he thought he might have a seizure…so when he did his friends caught him and laid him down.
My main concern was the length of time…they said 5-8 minutes, which isn’t unheard of for seizures, but sometimes people don’t breathe when seizing and so I was really worried.
I talked to him right afterwards, but he was still not fully conscious and aware of what happened…he had a 30 second memory, which is also common but concerning nonetheless.
They decided to put him on medication this time, since he now fit the definition of epilepsy/seizure disorder (number X time period).
So far all is well, no negative side effects besides a little drowsiness after taking it.
He’s very excited to drive again and he’s practically out the door as far as running off to college 😅
The doctors say such seizures resolve themselves in about 60% of young adults, so hopefully that’s the case.

As far as depression goes, yes, it’s been quite a long ride.
I feel I had to experience what it was like to not have a depressed baseline in order to get past it.
Like I said with the color analogy…I had to see this new color in order to know what it even was…no matter what other people may say, if you have never experienced something, it’s difficult to shoot for that thing or find it.
I have to give some credit to working with psychedelics, but it also takes a lot of personal heavy lifting.
They may help give you new and novel perspectives and increase your brain entropy or neuroplasticity, but a lot of people are under the false impression that you don’t have to do your own self-work to make progress and that’s just not how it works.
Anyhow…it’s helped a great deal with the daily pain.
The pain and my emotions used to be very intertwined, now they are definitely more separate from one another.

So tell me what you’ve been up to?
How are you and yours doing these days?
What lead everyone here to this new forum?
I know I read a bit about mods not being respectful and bullying people??
Yikes!

Talk to you more soon!
Much love ❤️

Hello 👋
Nice to see everyone!
Though you’re going to have to clue me in on your old name 😅
Much love!

I'm really glad your son's seizures are controlled with medication and he is back living life as he was before.
It sounds like he has good, quick thinking friends, too.

Your color analogy is a great way to explain experiencing life without depression for the first time. I've read about people's experiences taking psychedelics and it is really fascinating to me though I've not tried it. I've read experiences where people have very spiritual mind expanding experiences and then accounts of people experiencing depersonalization and psychosis. It does seem to be useful in expanding awareness if one also does the work I have an uncle with schizophrenia and have had some pretty (I guess I'd explain it as) lucid day dreaming experiences myself where I have to remind myself I'm not really seeing what I'm seeing lol. But that's few and far between. Idk if that places me in an at risk category for bad trips and after effects so I haven't tried it.

There's work in Illinois now to decriminalize psychedelics. I know there is a lot of research on the medicinal value.

I'm really glad to hear you have been able to separate the pain from your emotional life. As someone with a chronic condition that makes me feel not so great a lot of the time I do think it contributes to my moods.


The past about 6 mos a lot has been going on for me. My dad passed away in a car accident in September. I went through a phase that felt like a nihilistic black hole. It was really difficult. Just felt utterly cosmically alone. I made a huge career change in the midst of it I think just to keep my mind focused on something in the here and now that was mentally challenging rather than sinking deeper into my emotions. If I didn't have my husband and family I don't know that I'd have coped or be functioning as I am now. It was a huge hit. I'm ok now. I can think about my dad without breaking down. I have had a few dreams about him though none in which he was actually there. In one, my uncle (who was very close with my dad and passed in 2019) was walking into a mall while my whole family and I were walking out. He was younger and healthy and vibrant and happy looking with the sunlight glowing behind him. No one else could see him but me. He didn't speak. It was more a telepathic communication in the dream. I wondered why my dad didn't visit me and my uncle seemed to convey that he wasn't ready yet-- he hadn't reached a destination.

I'm thankful to have my family and we're all doing well. Every day I'm grateful. Can't complain about anything.

I'm here at the new forum because I really liked the idea of elected staff. Or term limits for staff. I think it's important to have solid rules in place to be followed by those running things and bans should only occur under extreme circumstances.

I’m doing ok. Just spending my time with my son and family. Not too much going on right now which is good. I needed a break from my sons brain cancer scare. So now I’m processing the last 4 years of life and trying to figure out what new direction I want to move into. Haven’t been taking photos. Taking a break from that too. Just been generally hanging out watching time pass by.